This thing called crush!

I’m not really a Twitter person but that day, I just downloaded the app because of a particular thread that I needed to follow. I also don’t like sharing my photos on social media so I had difficulties posting pictures, that way, it was just a blank page with few followers. I finally decided to follow some persons and maybe text them more like I was friend hunting.

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A particular page caught my attention for no particular reason but somehow it did get my attention, lol and I texted him with no hope of getting a response it was more like ”A try your luck’ ‘thing because honestly, on my end, I may not have replied to an unknown person from Twitter.

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He replied my text, that was surprising. Ironically the moment he replied I didn’t know what else to say. But somehow words came and we got talking. At that point I wanted to keep up the conversation but I had an engagement, I had to go off the app. I however told him, I was going to text him again.

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Later in the day, we got to know ourselves better and I found out he was a Nigerian from the North and stays in Lagos. That moment I knew distance would really be an issue (I stay in Port Harcourt) .Funny enough, that didn’t stop us from getting along and I must say I found him really fascinating.

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That same day, we exchanged pictures because he apparently didn’t know whom he was talking to even although I knew what he looked like since his pictures were on his page. Seeing them, I must admit, I was stunned. I mean why would a person be so handsome, its unfair to the guys who are barely fine..lol

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The texts became very frequent and I didn’t believe I was already falling for him. I mean, I didn’t understand how a near stranger was sweeping me off my feet effortlessly. That was very unlike me, I don’t get easily attracted or interested but mehnnn he was so different. He told me of how adorable I was and a lot that he liked about me… He made me feel a way I had never felt in a long time. I’m trying not to even talk about his accent, that thingggg OMG. Did you just say ”Hey baby”? Please say it 3 more times cause I’m screamingggg

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He was unique, had the perfect choice of words, perfect body physique, we had very similar likes, he’s scared of the dark and that’s so cute above all, he was really smart, a huge turn on. We had long conversations and everything was just so good to be true.

Apparently, I had a crush on him or maybe we had on each other but I know that you don’ get to say a guy has a crush on you. I mean, how’d you know for real? So the gist is, I didn’t understand why I was enthusiastic about an unrealistic relationship. Although we lie to ourselves for temporal pleasure, when we see stuff(friendships or relationships) that can work we know!

I allowed the deceit go on for too long (about a week) because it felt good waking up to morning texts, being reminded of how amazing you are and all that comes with it. Funny how I can comfortably call it deceit now, but then it was the best thing that happened to me, words could not convey how I felt for him, how I thought I felt for him.

So that beautiful morning, I woke up to text the audio love of my life that the closest I could get with was the video call. I texted him and got no reply for hours, ah! No it cannot be what I’m thinking. Yes, we both knew we weren’t going to see anytime soon but why call it off so abruptly. Is this boy mad? Did he just block me? Just like that? What’s wrong with people? why are they so rude.

Lol, I was ranting to myself jare, the deed was done. That was when I decided to take the scale off my eyes because I knew they were there, I just decided to enjoy the scales yeah but it later fell off. How rude, I used to think I was Cruise Queen, did this boy just use me to catch me? Did this beautiful crush drama thing just end like this ”Oh how the mighty has fallen” that was all that rang in my head. And all I could say was, THIS THING CALLED CRUSH!

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Anuebunwa Favour Tarilador is a law student, lazy writer, graphics designer and sometimes a Content creator. She has more articles, but she insist they are left in the archives.